Hatred

Came across a post on FB.

Other than its original motive, it had expanded overboard, besides reuniting, sharing, somehow the ones that received thousands of clicks overnight are posts filled with hatred, jealousy that leads to bitter and venomous feedbacks. It seems to attract the most attention, mostly negatives though, that protracted all over the society.

Teenagers they are. I say, they do have a mind set of their own. Immature? Probably. Ugly words seem to stand out better in attention seeking. The one who started it, does she really meant all she said? Or she just did it for the sake of attention.

FB does mislead. How many of those who commented knew her well? 99.9% of them are strangers probably. Many vent their anger through FB. She might be one of them. A thoughtless act that lead to endless word assault online.

The thing is, who knows??? What is real, and what is not?

Why spread ugliness before you knew it. Why all the offensive retort when you are not in the circle.

An eye for and eye, and this lead one tragedy to another. Well, different situation if its kindness. See, one kindness returns another.

Keep the foul words to yourself. If you have nothing good to say, don't say anything at all.

放下

2011年，我学会了“放下”。

是否有过这样的经验？

肚子很饿，面前的盘子装了块草莓蛋糕，垂手可得。

可是你讨厌吃草莓蛋糕。

最爱的巧克力蛋糕店离你家可远了。

营业时间又不定，千里迢迢走到那里时，白跑一趟也说不定。

重点是，你很饿了。

面前的草莓蛋糕？还是未知数的巧克力蛋糕？

确定了自己最想要的，就不会顾虑那么多了吧。

就算是未知数，我也想兜一圈，看一看。

就算草莓蛋糕再美味，再华丽，再价值连城

现在的我，已经决定停止乱抓，学会放下它，去追求我真正想要的。

彷徨期

小学一次，高中毕业一次，高三一次，大学一次，奖学金无数次，现在又一次，我还要彷徨多少次？

也是，人生如果通通预测得到，大家想看电影一样都看得到，100岁的人生可能5分钟就走完了。无趣啊。。

我常说，船到桥头自然直。可船破了，不就到不了岸了吗？哪儿来的自然直？所以，路，总是需要补，需要铺的吧。

一个决定，一个闪失就可以左右我一生？

不是，不是，该来的，就会来。我很努力的告诉自己。

时机，成败一瞬间？到没有那么严重。

说到底，做人，什么都少，就烦恼多。

想太多，不像我。

奢望什么，贪恋什么；不望，不盼。

像以往一样，到了，就会懂得伸手了。

别伸手乱抓了，去睡吧。。。

忘れないよ

いろいろ思い出した。

一年間は充実に過ごして、振り返って本当にいろいろあったね。。（＾o＾）

いつか分かれ道がくる、いつか。もう、来たか??!

４階の姫君達、忘れないよ。２階の姫君達、忘れないよ。

パーティで騒いだり、CJLCビールまで響ける笑い声、温泉旅館で日本人から「お前ら、うるさいよ！」と言われるまでの思い出、忘れないよ。

キッチンで永遠に続くようなにぎやかさ、「何作ってるの？」の掛け声、授業の後「ストーブ！！ストーブ！！空いてる？？」、晩御飯後「散歩！！散歩！！」の掛け声、いまだに耳に響く。

「元気？」

「もちろん!!!」

「ああ。。残念。。」ーー日常挨拶

「お前、死んでくれる???死んで、部屋譲ってくれよ!!」ーーアリヤ

「どいてぇぇ」－アリヤ

「やめて」（ルタアクセントで）

「どんどん買わなきゃああ～～～」（もちろんルタアクセントで）－ルタ

「何よ～～」－アアフケ

「どこ行く？」

「宝塚見に」ーアアフケ

「また？？？？」！＠＠

「わし。。。。」ーヨウちゃん

「いいよ～」－ヨウちゃん

「お前。。死ねぇええ！！！」－ヨウちゃん、アリヤ

「馬鹿！馬鹿！馬鹿！」（カメラに向かって-_-) ーエリ

「xxをレイプしないでよ！！！」（壊さないで、触らないで、どいて。。）

日本人の知らない日本語の使い方。

こんな日本語ここしか学べないかな。

何年経っても忘れないよ。

大好きの皆、この一年間、お世話になりました。

どうか、元気で、自分らしいの道を歩んで行こうね。

また、会いましょう。

文庫本熱中症

Have been buying a lot of books. Have been buying books as if there is no tomorrow, since i will be going back soon. Rather than planning on trips, outings, i find spending quality amount of time at Book Off equally reward-able. Its either Book Off, Yahoo Auction(plenty of new release, in cheaper price!! used of course.), and not to forget dear Amazon.Since i do not own a Credit Card, payment mode is kind of restricted for some retailers(some sellers that sell through Amazon). Which turns me to Yahoo Auction. Never thought auction can be so much fun!!

I missed a very important point. The joy of being able to read, leads me to all these.

At first, i started reading Japanese vertically, page after page reluctantly, hitting my electronic dictionary endlessly as well. All contributes to my thesis. Imagine reading page after page, line after line of endless crap that bores me to hell. Which at that time, I can't get a grasp of the language, nonetheless the meaning. Have to read and reread so many times that i got so fed up with my topic.

But, But, But, after that, it was heaven. I discovered that i can read at the end!! I linger at book stores before that, but was so reluctant to pick up any books. Yes, i am just there for the atmosphere. I love MPH when i was in my primary and secondary, more than willing to spent time sitting on the floor reading, touching the glossy cover of those new expensive books, but never buying it. Why???? Expensive, and my wallet was always thin and hungry. Rather spend it on food, seriously. Which then explains my expanding body size. Lol..

Since electronic books exist. I download. Slowly, it turned me away from books, further and further away..By the time i realized, the books i read in University was countable. Shame on me.

All in all, i picked up my old hobby!!

And...share with you guys some books that i've read here.

Highly recommended NO.1:

告白　（湊　かなえ）Kokuhaku by Minato Kanae

A high school teacher's kid was found dead in the school's swimming pool. Had she drowned by accident? or was it murder on purposed. The police conclude that it was an accident. Yuuko, the mother of the dead child, as well as the class teacher of 3B, found the devastating truth. Her daughter died because of a ridiculous experimental joke. The killer sits right in her class. A and B.

However A and B showed no remorse of their act. Yuuko decides to teach them a lesson of their life. Minimal amount of blood, withdrawn from her husband, who is a AIDS carrier, was injected into their daily Milk pack. Says her. The changes in their life, the reaction of B's parents or what they call バカ親, who declared that everything B does is reasonable and victimized. The overpowering guilt felt by B, on top of the parental pressure, leads to the killing of his own mother. A on the other hand, a complete genius, self-centered and arrogant, has a twisted sight of the world. After the confession from Yuuko, he endures all the tormenting events from his classmates, kept his stand. Later part of the book revealed his thirst for motherly love, which he is willing to do anything just to win a glance from his mother whom left him when he was 7.

The structure of the story was nicely composed. Each chapter was written in a different aspect of view from the characters of the story. The movie was great, but the book is even better. But i have to say that i understand better after watching the movie. Really enjoyed reading the book, something to look forward to in my long and monotonous bus or train ride.

Highly recommended.

It actually leads me to reading other books from this writer. ^^

Who knows..

Unpredictable..

You may have all your plans carefully planned ahead

But who knows..

Things might just end up differently.

tell me

tell me

感动

又是台风，又是大雨

送货人员全身湿透了

还让他来回跑了两趟

从他的手上接过我的包裹

除了不停地说不好意思，还有就是深深的感动

谢谢哦。。

那一大叠漫画，我一定统统都把它看完，珍藏。

慰め

暖かい言葉と優しい笑顔で。。

明仁天皇と美智子皇后が被災地にてをさしのべた

天皇夫婦の存在や慰めが被災者たちの強い力になった

日本国民はなぜ災難を受けてもそんなに心強いにいられるなのか

それはみんなを支えてくれる政府や皇室があるなのでしょうか

復興までは時間がかかるけど、国民一心で、この日はもう遠くないと思う

噩梦。。

考试的前一刻，

慌慌张张的看回以前的notes..

特别特别冗长的facts，还在那里想要怎样背

根本背不进！！

朋友们已经准备好纸笔进考场了。。

我还在那里跳脚

为什么我没有准备这张??

太有自信？？

然后就匆匆把notes丢一边，

冲进考场了

然后就是前半部看不懂，后半部可以猜得状况

这样跳脚的情节，还真是久违了

form 6 有我最狼狈不堪的回忆

通宵（本小姐考试从不通宵）背来又背去

整本化学课本还是80%看不懂

本人理解能力有限公司，记忆也是有限公司

教室里坐我前面是全班第一，

第一的旁边坐着第二，

坐我旁边的她总是5名以内

可以说，围绕着我的风水位的统统都是班上的先锋

天天都有朋友来问这问那

还真是热闹

也很羡慕他们能头头是道的解释，辩解

虽然不是听得很懂

却很喜欢看他们为了某某方程式争得连下课也不用去了

我？当然只是在那里傻笑。。

为了考试，通宵不睡的人还真是不少

可是如果通宵可以让我明白那些乱七八糟的理论的话

那还有价值

就是不明白。。

进了考场，把问卷从头看到尾

不是看有那一题答不了

而是看看得懂那一题

然后就把能用的答案全部写下来

相关的也好

不相关的也好

全部写完

所以，到今天还是很珍惜能一进考场

就能从头答到尾的感觉

2个小时对着看不懂的问卷，真的很恐怖

久违的噩梦让我想起这样的一段往事

那一年半，是我极珍贵回忆中的一部分

病歪歪

好久没病得那么惨了

连续病了几个星期

发烧，伤风，退烧，又发烧

好了，明天又倒了。。

病到一塌糊涂还要自己去烧药

哈哈哈。。我还真的被他们他们笑掉牙了

这楼出了个每天碎碎念的的她，还有个药味很重的我，天天在那里搅那锅黑汤

很棒的魔女家族

结果这次统统都没效

越病越重

病到去医院还是头一遭

可恶的医院，

居然要收我rm200++的入门费，

这里的大医院统统都需要小医生的介绍书

没那张纸条，不用病死你，就先贵死你

黄金周我上哪儿找小医生呵？？学校校医闭关放假，周边连个诊所的影都没。。

气死我。。转头丢掉那份填好的病患资料，就这样走出门外了

出了门还真的很想哭

眼泪要往下掉时还记得提醒自己丢脸回家才丢

可恶的大学

大得可怕

找个巴士站，差不多绕了半个地球

问了n个学生

还有幸福的小孩笑嘻嘻跟我说。。。从来没搭过巴士耶

巴士站还分来回两不同站

大老远从地球另一端又走回这一段

头都快烧得冒烟了

可恶。。早知道就搭对面的地铁回家就好了

呜。。呜。。可恶。。

医生没见到，倒是中国朋友的药有效。。

半天下来烧退了一半了

头脑也清醒了

想想。。不是没有钱就不要生病

而是rm200介绍费？？不是给不起咧。。

拿了你们政府的钱，还把大半还给你们政府的医院？

医疗费我没话说。。介绍费？？？？

话说现在不是计较金钱的时候，死了半分都拿不回我也懂

但。。。。。。

想，我还有力气走下去所以才酱爽快转头走人吧

再想，大难不死必有后福

哈哈哈

想到就开心

梦

the second/third time??

it had always started at a place near river or the sea or even at the swimming pool..

this time..it started at a fisherman's house..

apparently i am, no i wasn't alone, we were visiting a pair of old folks near the sea..

then it started with someone saying..the water had leveled up..

the old man couldn't believe it..didn't believe it in fact.

muttered something about 'nonsense..nonsense..not in season yet..' and he went out..

Then i saw it...rolling and rolling into bigger waves, doubling the size as it approach shore..coming towards us. I couldn't hear anything besides the thundering of the waves. There was no dam, no fencing at all to be in its way. Before i knew it, i was on the run. The adrenaline rush hits in, i grabbed someones hand, and fled for higher shelter. iT WAS RIGHT BEHIND ME..

Then i always somehow manage to get to this higher spot, this time, it was a house. A house on a slope, just at the corner of a turning point. People looking out from the balcony, why weren't they running?? I lost my shoes in the run. So, without permission, i grabbed one off their shoe rack. The shoe rack seemed to be waiting for me. There was a pair of red sandals. Then i saw it crashed. The gigantic waves crashed just below the house. I could feel the dirt, disgusting mud water covering my toes. And i took off again, pulling whoever that came with me along, up hill, jut in time to look back and see another wave rolling, thundering over..bigger..that moment i was thinking that the house that i took my sandals from would be gone by this time..

running..running..running..

i actually heard a knock(probably from next door..thin walls)..and i jumped off my bed and ran towards the door. Normally muscles don't work that well when i just woke up..but this time i manage to get to my door at the same quick pace as if i wasn't sleeping..it was 5.45am this morning..and i manage to get back to sleep later.

why

Why do people tend to blame others when things doesn't go as they wished.

Probably when you have things too much in your way that you can't stand when plans doesn't go as you want.

Plain Stupid.

When you head is so hot, you can't think straight. Yes i understand. But when this happens too frequent, you are sick. You don't just throw your temper around people you are close with assuming they will take it all in. When will you grow up, you tell me. If you are so afraid of others pointing out your faults why not perfect yourself, polish yourself.

Of all words, you should just learn to look things on the bright side. As if you need to be told.

有时

对人不太信任

交际手段不够高明

太过自以为是

就变成现在的我

当身边的朋友已经开始定下来

找到属于自己的鱼群时

发现我还是个lone ranger..

跟谁都可以。。

最近让我思考这个的来源：她问我，你在那里，跟哪国人最要好

谁都好吧

谁都可以

有机会给我固定

却给我到处绕，绕掉了

是我想要的结局

但，但，但

有时

也会希望我属于某个鱼群

。。。。

不想了

把感情，义气看得很重

最后搞得自己很累

这种蠢事，要心甘情愿去做才作得开心

一生人，寥寥几个就够了

勉强的下场---通常收尾都很难看

不是封闭我自己

而是在等另一个我甘心掏肺的知心

想说话。。

这样的感觉持续了蛮久的

还以为渐渐的会淡忘习惯

24/7全天一种语言的感觉

我应该会记到永远

想家到还不会，

只是想说“马来西亚”语

卡在中间不上不下的感觉还蛮妙的

中文？？

你确定你说的是中文？？-正版中国人

英文？？

听起来好像少了点。。糖？盐？

马来文。。省略，没人听得懂（听过）

而且，重点是

大家都跟你说日文

在马来西亚应该是太习惯一天多姿多彩的3种语言

来到这里不自觉就觉得一种很不够。。表达？？

一天里面可以就100%日文（non skype days)

too used to rojak..

有点窒息的感觉，喘不过气。。

Miracle~

what ever you do, even if its impossible,

at least you TRY.

-me-

In a country like Msia, people take things too easily.

Live a good life, with a "tidak apa" attitude.

Here, things that are 当たり前、somehow doesn't applies there.

So, extra efforts are needed when you need to get things done. But, at least you try.

"Miracles" happen..

日本

Yes, i am here.

To a whole new, well, probably "different" place might be the right word.

Same place, but different mind set.

The first lesson that I am learning: Not to take things easily. Including myself.

Really appreciate the fact that i actually got this chance to explore myself.

～自分探し

1 year, how much difference will it make, how much of the old me will it change.

I am interested in knowing the answer.

At this moment of my life, strictly speaking, yet to have a personality of my own.

Yet to get a grasp of "me".

Yet to make my visions clear.

I still do not know what i want at the moment.

With this me at this moment, i am clear of the fact that i will not be able to move much further than i am supposed to.

Naked truth.

Like what 渡辺教授said to me during the monbusho interview session, receiving this scholarship, its just a start to everything, the key. The chart he visualized to me was sky high, and i am at the bottom line. And that is when i told him my aim. But, to think of it, is that my real aim? or is it a temporary aim, just to score the scholarship. Whichever is it, I had done it, and got what i wanted in the end. But, i do not want to disappoint him. Which i am afraid i will, if i continue the way i am at the moment.

FRUSTRATION.

I have to put a stop to this whole....lost, unsure, unsecured, aimless, whatever!! status that i am at now. But, i do not know how to, besides studying hard, concentrating hard, doing everything hardcore, and end up feeling lost AGAIN. This time along with exhaustion as well. Tired and hopeless.

This was reflected through my attendance during add and drop week. At first, I attended from the 1st period right up to the last period. And today, I only attended half. Things are getting worse.

Feeling like a headless fly.

Question: What do I really want?

?

ambition= unknown

dream= unknown

But, even with the above condition, I am a strong believer of -

I will try to do my best, give my best in whatever I am doing at the moment. To be stronger, to be tougher and to be prepared for whatever that awaits me in my future.

I am the one to choose who I will be in future.

From now.

太得空

什么事都不用做时，才烦。

什么事都轮不到你来控制时，更烦。

打从3月 面试 到8月成绩揭晓，

足足把心脏挂在半空挂了5个月，

有点麻痹了。

从迫不及待，着急不安

等到。。有点反感了

结果就变成事事都无所谓，天塌下来都无所谓的感觉

。。。还真是获益良多

怎么处理自己乱七八糟的情绪

怎么說服自己用平心看待结局

现在回想起来。。

已经回想不起来了

现在看回去，很多细节都很模糊

不过，很深刻的是

当初想要那份奖学金的心态

那种感觉到现在都很明确

当时发生在周围的一切好像都在乱转乱飘

只有那个念头是沉重的，直直的

带着我做完一个步骤， 再做下一个

没有任何犹豫，或是铺第二条路的想法

但，现在到手了

很开心，倒是没有想象中那么开心

反而身边的人比我更兴奋

太平心看待了吗

还是心冷了

现在却竟然会开始犹豫，恐惧倒是还没有

不过以我的性格因该到了机场才会感觉到

什么都不用做了

什么都不用准备了

反而觉得不自在

被告知申请宿舍居然什么过程都不用

别人却忙得手忙脚乱

有点怕怕咧

真的？

真的？

很没真实感

re 亲爱的

人很好相处

不代表可以被你随便对待

我不是你的男朋友/女朋友

没有义务绕着你的世界转

也没有义务包容你的全部

“自”“私”要适可而止

切记有舍才有得

自重

conscious

Exams is around the corner..and I am yet to be focus.

Which is a MAJOR big problem.

Sometimes I am grateful for my slow senses. They said I am "zen".

But actually not, i am just SLOW. take things too easy...too relax.

Fear seldom knock into my senses 5 min before every heart-attack event.

Grateful. Because this really helps during exams, presentations, interviews. Blah-blah..where everybody sweats, wringing their hands earlier on. It would b a waste of energy to me.

But, i seriously need it this time, because its the fear that i need to get me going, preparing for my exams!!! Which is why i am here after..half a year?To knock myself into consciousness.

My brain is not working well. Or in another words, I am too lazy to make my brain work.

Yes, the key words are---I AM TOO LAZY.

Facts:

I cannot imagine,

-my CGPA dropping, AGAIN.

-not below 3.7.

-not below 3.7.

- I want....

OKAAAY, i am off to study.

muakz~ love this place.

Japan Osaka 3

i know...i know...it has been a long time since i updated..3-4 months..or more?
seriously lazy to an extend...
but anyway...since i m on my study week now, supposingly to STUDY..ANYWAY...
I will end my posting on Japan first .


so...to cut everything short...i will just post those memorable parts..
which..include my solo trip to----NARUTO!! （鳴門）


I tend to decide things really really at the last minute. For this trip, i decided the night before, around 11pm?? and i left early next morning, not enough time to inform others. um, just one of mates that i informed, which i bumped into her in somewhere i forgot in the institute.

I knew this place existed, just never come across my mind to visit it. And it just struck me that night that i have to go somewhere to fill my day for the next morning. Alone.


So i gathered information from the internet (japanese websites for public transport are incredible ex: http://www.jorudan.co.jp/ that helps u with all the train routes from all over japan..AND keep in mind that their train routes are crazy. In Mal, the most is Star- KTM/ Star-Mono, But in Japan, a single station could be open up to more than 10 routes, n u have to find your way on the right track, right train,--a track could be occupied by several trains as well. One word-Madness. Having fun finding my way out. Seriously.) and from the reception counter as well.

Started off the next day to Naruto..


The main Attraction for me to visit Naruto---is the Whirlpool (渦潮）－うずしお.

--first, u need to board a boat to go really near to the whirlpools. U can choose to watch from the bridge above too, but, i choose the boat. Closer.. xD

The boat..with announcers explaining on where u are heading to, what u will be seeing and so on..there was even a museum on it about whirlpools..

The calm sea..45 min ride to the centre of the sea..


and the crazy me..




Faint swirls...not quite clear..

--Swirling...swirling...swirling whirpool

a faint swirl...


a break in between ---the black water, and the greenish ones. according to the explanation, it mention something about a high tide rushing to a lower tide which causes the break in the middle and ofcourse the whirlpool. This attracts my attention even more than the whirlpool. The borders are seriously breathtaking..

i didnt got much luck to see a big one that day...just minor ones..not in the season yet

even on the journey, which i took a bus, with only me and an old couple from Hiroshima, on a 40 passenger bus.

Which thanks to them, explained to me alot on when is best to watch the big swirls to where to get down the bus. I m seriously clueless of where i should be going..(due to insufficient preparation) and although i did check out alternative routes, everything seem to change on the way, when i start meeting people, getting better/worse advise on which is the BEST way to reach the destination. Had been talking to countless strangers all along. Only i realise till the end of the journey that, by showing my student card i could get a 30% discount off. I paid for RM50++ for the bus fare, RM20++ fore the train fare, and RM30++ for the boat ride. For to and fro, i spend almost RM250++ solely on transportation. Yes. Transportation is very very expensive over there. U cant find a RM2 per ride Rapid Japan/tokyo/whatsoever over there. Every bus trip is at least---the cheapest: RM5-6. taxi is even worse. RM30 is expensive in Malaysia but there, they charge u RM20-25(depends on area) once u board the taxi. and later..u can immagine. I had taken a ride of RM300++by taxi there. Sponsored by my host. Luckily.AND THANKFULY.

Ah...before i boarded the boat, i tried grill fresh scalops there..and a normal udon. Students mar..cant afford lobster. little prawn will do..

Bought some seaweeds and ended my day. Miss the green tea there though..Drank it everywhere i went.

Do visit Naruto if you want to experience something new and fresh. But frankly speaking there wasn't other tourist attraction over there in Naruto except for the whirpool. That was what i aimed for, and really glad that i went on my crazy plan. I was still thinking that I am out of my mind at 7am morning that day(waiting for bus). The shuttle ojisan was shocked that i want to travel soo far to another prefecture that, seldome people visit. Not quite a tourist atraction as it was really out of town. Anyway. I m glad that i went on with it.

A one day trip that i will remember forever.

I am not the only one. I have crazy friends(ahem...CYD..) that took night bus(9hrs ride?) to Nagano for 2 days trip.

I think most of us went all out since we have this opportunity.

Japan Osaka 2

Did anyone realise the price of airplane tickets plummet like anything nowadays?? I just have this huge urge to pack my stuff and run off somewhere...IF i have money.Which i don't.

A rountrip airticket to Japan/Korea used to be at least RM4k or around that rate...but now...u can get there with less than 2k!!!! Dear Win Yang just came back frolm Korea (she's a BIG shinhwa fan--went there for their concert..), and her roundtrip fare was around RM1.8k or RM1.4k? I cant remember..But still it's less than 2k..

....since I just came back from a major trip for the year.. NO chance I can go for another..

ugh...I still feel like running!!!

ANYWAY....

Osaka ---Nanba 5th April

We went there at our first weekend..

Situated in the city site of Osaka, packed with anime, mangga, video, electronic stores..the whole street of buildings are actually shops, with at least 2 storeys of goods mentioned above. Although I am no big fan of either manga or anime, but it was still an eye opening event..My friends practically went CRAZY...going into one after another shops that seems to be never ending..

Of course, we also got the opportunity to "explore" the X-rated sites. Well..they actually not covering up, selling those along with what you call "sensible" mangas and animes, in ROWS of shelves.. So..basically it's EVERYWHERE. Well...At least we don't see it in Mal right..

(I posted only the "sensible" ones..)

Although I have people telling me that electronic devises in Japan are dirt cheap, but through all the stores I had went into, the good/new ones aren't cheap, just reasonable. Most of the Vietnamese who were with us bought cameras there though. Still, I think Malaysia would be a better place if u are not looking for those high-end products.

AND...here comes the madness...

We, me n 2 of my close friends (Deng and Xin Yin) actually took the guts to walk in a MAID CAFE...which turn out to be "memorable"..

Yea..with all the waitress dressing as maids serving you, addressing you as "master/mistress". If you have a "thing" for these stuff, quit reading, it will upset your stomach...

To state it clear...I m no fan of these kind of---i dunno what to call it. So no offence for what ever i published.

This is the maid cafe that we entered..---Cafe de Porte..

and the rules are, you are not supposed to take any picture, and hands on any of the "maids" (which includes sexual harrasment). It was stated on the walls.

The one we went into weren't that big, looks like a doll house, u know..

The maids announced "Welcome back, master" when you entered the doors. Which gave me goosebumps...

An image from google of roughly how it looks inside..the one that we went in was smaller.

An image of the maids from google, but it looks the same....it cost to take photos inside, around RM11++ per photo..

I didnt really notice my surroundings untill I was seated, which was when I started to feel drowsy.

Situation 1 : There is these 2 geeks sitting rite on my left (tables are small and seatings are close to each other), drooling over something.

My friends: wei, u c the 2 ppl beside u.

me: uhuh?...seems fine to me r..

My friends: NO, see what are they holding.

Then my eyeballs nearly dropped out..

They were actually drooling over a LARGE collection of maid keychains, posters, models, cards...and they were smilling dreamily..comparing with the real live ones infront of them.. u get that picture.. which i went "omg...."..

Well, they are what we call---the "Otaku"s

And as I was the nearest to them..their conversations were quite clear to me..

And...trust me you won't want to hear it..flrting with the maids, toying words with them..ugh..

(Btw..we didnt bother to whisper while gossiping, as we spoke in Chinese...)

Then, from there onwards, we started noticing stuff..

Situation 2: The table on my right, seats a young girl around 15 -18 yrs old..and 2 kids.

She is wearing some..what they call " Lolita" wear. with frills, corset..i didnt take any pics of her..so just an image of what is "LOLITA" wear..

erm...you don't normally wear it go lunch rite...

and Deng started a conversation with her, discovered that she is just an high school student, bringing her sisters out for lunch...BUT to a maid cafe?? well, according to her, she says she likes these stuff alot..and was a regular..

Situation 3: There is this guy, around age 25++ walking in, and seats right opposite our table. He looks quite decent, "normal" dressed, compare to others...But then, he started getting weirder and weirder..

1. his face started flushing (I thought it was the heat, but NO it's not. I found out later on.)

2. He got more and more excited (his movements..)

3. 10 min later,he walk up to a waitress, request for a photo session.

4. ok...photo session is fine, but he started fishing out his "gadgets" - a pack of cards to put at his waist, a flashy belt that holds it, and a piece of card (some game card..) which he posed with it, and got the "maid" to pose with it as well.

......he was either stuck in his own fantasy world or watched too much anime.

And we just...STARED.

he is right in front of us. As mention, the shop wasn't big, and we have no where else to settle our eyes.

Oh yea...did I mention we went in for lunch? Yea...lunch...

We seriously dunno what we put into our mouth...

I had omelette rice, which I get to draw whatever image that i like on it with tomato sauce, erm, correction, the "maid" drew it.

I don't really remember how it taste like..

we got so sick of the environment, that we quickly finish our meal and left.

really memorable...if you feel you are insane, go there, and you will feel right again.

You will probably be the only "right" ones in there...

no offence to all Otakus...

Study trip.....Japan, Osaka 1

I m lucky.

I m just a first year, and i was lucky enough to be chosen by my lecturer for this 1 month program, fully sponsored by the Japan Foundation to Osaka.

Although this was already my third trip to jp..still, it is different from the previous trips. Because...for the first time i was with other 9 Malaysians...and i came back with my Chinese, English , Malay(due to the presence of Indonsesians) fully functioning. For the past 2 experience, I came back taking around 2 days or more to get a grasp of my mother tongue. Try not speaking for 1 month...you won't know how it felt..So desperate that I spoke Chinese to myself...(Last time lar...)

Anyway....we were sponsored from top to toe, even receiving a lum sum of allowance for our stay there. As for accomodation, we stayed at Kansai International Center, in Osaka. And the best part is...one person per room!!!!!! Is totally heaven compare to college in UM..

the place that accomodate us foreigners..

my room

window view..

This is a hostel, the one I used to live in UM, is also a hostel...

But it DIFFERS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! And I don't even want to talk about the food...my brain doesn't work right thinking about the food back in my old hostel..

And also...we were just in time for the cherry blossom season.

It lasted for another 2 weeks or so before turning the whole street green...

Eve

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

What normally do you do during this festive season??

When i was small, I use to like it ALOOOOT. The interest towards this festival decrease every year as I grow...Guess it's beacause the stuff that we play during childhood decrease to almost nothing till today. Hm... we still get to play cards though. Still, the excitement....... 

Chinese New Year is mainly a chance of reunion. After not seeing each other for almost a year or less, we get together, sit down, talk, eat and get fat....LOL..and normally the topic of interest won't change...

If you are schooling, they will ask stuff like...

"How old are you le? Grown tall liao le!"

"Taken no. 9 ? or no. 11 ? Result how r?? HOW MANY A"s???" 

**no. 9 is SPM, no. 11 is STPM, SO...u can guess what's for PMR....

If you are in University...

"Where you studying now? What subject? How is it??"

"hah? you study this r??in future you wan be TEACHER r????"

**normally they don't ask what I wan't to persue in future, everyone assumes someone who study linguistic WILL beome a teacher!!! 

Which....I will have to explain..

"No lar..can be translator, or can go into business mar. F&B also can consider mar..ALOT LE~!!! VERY VERY WIDE SCOPE ORH!!!!"

Which...the whole conversation will ends with....

"Hm....study hard....c how lar...no need worry 1.."

swt....since when did I woried....

And if you look older than a student, they will ask...

"What are you doing now r? Good or not?" 

then blah blah blah about your work, your employer, you salary and etc etc...

Which will leads on to....

" Got BF/GF r???"

If answers NO...

"hah? why don't have? how old are you orh?? bla bla bla....."

If answers YES...

"HAH>???? How long ady???"

Which leads on to ---

how/where/when you met your partner...DETAILS of your partner...etc etc..

THEN....

"Next time bring him/her back let us see lar! "

OR....WORST.....

"Got plan to get married??? WHEN?????"

HAH...it never runs off topic.......

New Year

A review of 2008....

1. I got my first job as cashier/waitress at a restaurant at a SUPER low pay of RM700 per month. working from 10am to 12am. Supid enough to work for almost 2 mths.

2. I got my second job as a telesales person at HP. Learn alot of stuff. Attractive commission rate. I earn arnd 9k++ during the 3 mths there. G reat job. Stressful though...

3. My STPM was a failure. I got 2.67, barely scrape through the border line. A big disgrace compare to my previous achievements since UPSR. 

And i finally realise i sucked in Science. Lucky I studied STPM. 

4. I went to Japan in mid May for around 1 month. My second trip. The Japanese were great host. But, I realise Malaysians might be better. Great place for study trips, short stay, travelling, but not for future living. Go elsewhere...

4. I got into University Malaya, Faculty of Linguistics. And found great classmates inside the old and ugly building..

5.The first ever robbery i encounter occured in my hostel. Crazy as it sounds, everyone was the victim. The hostel was under construction during hols, and all our doors, locker, were forced open, ransacked. Lots of stuff gone mising, like water bottles, food, money, clothes....even slippers. And it was all nothing compare to my roommates' loss--she lost her RM1.5K electronic dictionary.

6. I made a crane with my team out of wires and papers in less than 5 days. As tall as me!!!

7. I made friends from all over Malaysia, esp the Sabah, Labuan, Sarawakians, and the Penangs. Best thing ever!!

8. My results for the 1st semester was 3.95, closest figure i ever got in all the recent exams i been through to perfect 4.0. 

9. I actually went to a New Year Countdown Party that i destested so much. I hate the hot and sizzling atmosphere, sweaty and sticky all over. Standing in the box of sardines from 10.30pm to 12am just to wait for the burst of fireworks over my head. The impact was great. My ears was deafened by the shooting fireworks, and ashes of the remainings all over!! @_@ 

10. I think.... I am beginning to like everything about my new environment...besides the robbery part. I will put up with that, considering the fact that i m living in Malaysia. 

So,

2008

ends well...

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2009

New Year, New Start.

 

   

Merry Christmas!!!

Although me and my family don't really celebrate Christmas, still, it's a holiday!! which means---family day a.k.a. house cleaning day(HCD).

HCD is usually every Saturday, Sunday and every public holiday.

Car washing, house cleaning, doing the laundry, so...u can immagine how is my christmas like.

ANYWAAAAY.....

I read alot of story books, mostly by Enid Blyton when I was younger. So Christmas to me is something non-realistic, dreamy kind of celebration.

Santa doesn't exist. That's the problem.

But i still like it.

The decorations in shopping complex are something to look forward to. This year, I favour KLCC's and The Curve's decoration. The gigantic Christmas tree at the centre of KLCC is utmost noticeble by everyone who had visited there. Its almost 4 stories high up, and dunno why, i like it ALOT though its just a tree, and not much decoration on it too. Simple and nice! As for The Curve's, normal Christmas decoration, put up near the entrance of the curve, with lots of chrismas dolls along with the wonderful designs in the smalll circle. Even my mom likes it!You will find it hard to take pics inside cause it's always crammed with ppl!!!! Its worth a visit...

Christmas...hm....it means end of the year too.

New Year coming!!!

foul

how old is my bro??

--11.

not even in his secondary.

And he was spilling foul words, swearing over msn chat sessions with his friends. Classmates. I was unaware of the "vocabs" he knew untill i took a peek at what he was doing with the comp when he went to toilet. 

WHOA.....

it was like foul words contest. vocabulary contest or whatsoever..  cantonese, hokkien, english, the frequently heard 'f' word was all over the chat box. 

And he was chatting with a girl. *fainted*

 I knew kids now a days are not as naive as what the adults thought they are. But seriously, i underestimated my brother. But well, i took the chance to go through the meaning of those "vocabs" with him. And goodness me...he doesnt know any..

Does those words sounds like 'hello' and 'bye bye' that u use everyday???? 

   

Good thing he doesn't use it in the house. I would have him thrown across the streets. 

It's not that i dont swear at all...but not in the house. Same goes with the rest of my family. 

Get out if you want to talk dirty. 

to those i missed....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

I m so ..........(can't think of a word now to discribe my ignorance..) to forget almost everyones birthday esp those in NOVEMBER. Even including mine. Just remember it when Sue msg me from Aus to ask me out on that day..T_T

Really really sorry..Really really sorry. I don't even have the guts to wish some of you face to face since its already past, like.....months ago? and now only i remember. I m so freakin forgetful that i even forgot to set it in my phone earlier on. 

Promise. 

Will remember next year. Set it in my Calender already. 

Won't miss it....unless...argh..i will remember!!!!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday guys....

---dedicating to Chai Ping, Yan Chyi, Xin Yun and more..

Muakz!!! I still have you in mind!!!

assumptions..

"Never judge a book by its cover"

It's not a new phrase, but it suddenly hit on to me recently.Just realised how true....is it.

I think most girls encounter this.

There is surely somebody around you, a really "special" weirdoo, that you girls bitch about at her back. Either she has an utmost stunning appearance, or her attitude sucks.

Well, there is this person at my college who scores in both criteria.

When girls sit down, they do nothing but gossips. So, she is quite "well-known" even at the begining of the semester. Her attitude is 'superb', with the turning-on-a-white-eye experession as her significant appearance, plus a super blast of sarcastism.

And, she really did freak me out on the first encounter.

 She was soo well, ignorant. And the words she chose....phew..super sarcastic. So, i actually put in mind to stay away from her. But, as i don't really have a chance to choose, we were on the same team AGAIN. 

I was like.. 'oh god...how r...' and my roommate was like..'cham lar  u, she very scary 1 le..'....which made me worried more. so, i decided that  if she is going to play with her sarcastism..well, don't think i m gonna loose at that too..

Haha...but in the end, my sarcastism didn't get to show. I m still sweet and nice twds her. Maybe,it just doesn't work on girls. I think yan chyi might understand that haha..looking at what we were in form 6.

And as for her, i actually had the feeling that she isn't that snappy as most of them thought, i think she is cute though, plus great talent in arts, big diff. Got alot of her white eye though, she is the first girl i had seen rolling her eye so often in that sort of dramatic way when she's pissed. 

Guess it takes time to understand someone.

Limits

Half a sem gone..

here comes the Raya hols..

Uni life does really brush up/ furnished me.

Esp staying in colleges.

At least I had experience the worst(i thought) in emotion controlling in my life till today. Is either the stress in uni level up or my stress controlling system level down. Although most of the time everthing in stable and cozy..there are still many events that really can push my emotions to a stage that..it might just...go overboard and BREAK into pieces.

So, i think i learnt alot in manipulating my limits....

For example, it was 11.30PM, and there is a test tomorrow morning, and i m still sitting in the hall, having a so call conference with the president of the college, with everbody. And normally these conference and events is where a bunch of monkeys putting on a show. Trying to amuse the crowd, getting all the attentions and argueing over some past and silly threats that doesnt help the current situation. Its just some time wasting sessions that i rather go to bed early or last minute studies.

Show time.

Thats what everybody says.

Sitting in the chair watching them quarell and argue, does push my emotional limits to certain extend, really controlled,so that i wont suddenly barge out the door the next second.

Group assignments was another issue.

To deal with group members who CANT understand a word from you, although both speaking the same language, is something new for me.

An assignment given months ago have to be up by tommorow afteroon.

And she was still asking,

" huh, what we have to do oh?"

I really learnt alot just by talking to her.

Blood was BOILING, and i still have to talk to her calmly, repeating stuff that she is supposed to do. STILL, she just can't get what i meant.

Group work is a piece of XXXX full of small and unimportant stuff that has to be done by everyone. She got it finally, when i spat out right in front of her. Never once did i raised my voice in front of others, till i met her. MEMORABLE. But strange, she understand every word i said after that. Thanks to her, that i finally sharpen my skills in communication.

There is still alot more to learn though...

Food

Uni life had began to settle as it supposed to be.

Just....it seems monotonous, repeating scene after scene.

Even the food in our college taste the same every day. Seriously wondering had my taste buds died away during the stay. The food they served goes accordingly to schedule, everyday, everyweek..

Just a rough menu below...

Pls be rmb that every meal comes with sambal sauce, except for breakfast.

Menus....

Mon

Breakfast : Fried Rice

Lunch : Chicken Rice

Dinner : Sotong or Fish

Tue

Breakfast: Bee hoon

Lunch : Chicken Rice

Dinner : Egg, if you are fast enough..

Wed

Breakfast : Fried Rice

Lunch and Dinner: Food is so bad that i never want to remember. MOstly fish they served.

Thurs

Breakfast : Fried Kuey Teow (All you taste is only the spiciness..your tongue wont have any response to other taste..numbed, not even the kuey teow taste)

Lunch and dinner: Chicken or peanuts.

Fri

Breakfast : Fried Rice

Lunch : Chicken Rice.

Dinner : Hard Boiled Egg with sauce that taste like dahl..just that it contains coconut i think.

Sat

Breakfast : Burger (same, if you are fast..)

Lunch and Dinner...not sure.

Egg,

specifically, the sunny side up egg, fried, is the best food ever inside there. And it will be gone, fast as well. Their backup i always FISH..which..i think those who ate knows the taste..

There was once i was queing up that day,

where there was egg AVAILABLE. But, unfortunately, when it was my turn, there wasn't any left for me. I stared in dismay when the kakak took the tub away, replace it with a tub full of fish.I almost cried. Ended up eating plain rice and sambal, with some vegetable gravy...

The food they served is always spicy, esp the kueyteow on thurs morning, seriously memorable, when i get out of there. Early in the morning, and taking these spices...

Their food is either to hot, or too salty, and, they still provide ketchup on each and every table, which i used to see malays pouring over their rice or chicken. Dun understand...maybe their taste buds are used to the saltyness. OMG..i feel like vomiting while typing this out..can taste the saltyness in my mouth already..

In conclusion, the food is not too bad in our college..compared to others. I heard our neighbour college, serving minced burger meat as a dish for either lunch or dinner...with tomato sauce or ketchup i think....YUCK...

I m LUCKY. I have to tell myself this all the time. 1 more year to go. Or maybe more, if i plan to stay on for 2nd year..so ,have to put up with the food, since it comes along with the package.

Anyway, food is something to stuff your tummy full rite?

So whatever the taste is...it doesn't matter.

uni STARTS.........

with ORIENTATION.



as known as most uni's orientation, its for 1 week, and it's "motivating".

for the whole week, being barked, screamed, yelled and insulted at(seriously...their bahasa melayu...so many insults i never dreamt of..), so frequent that, although was quite nervous for the 1st day, but soon got used to it.

sleeping late, waking up early is a norm. But as told by the PMs(senior), we are getting more sleep compare tho the last few batches.So, basically we are getting only 3 to maximum 4 hrs of sleep per day.

we have loads of talks and most are informative. but, due to lack of sleep, everyone is tired..

so, "fishing" is common during talk times..no only we are tired, our seniors, who took charge of "torturing" us, are also tired that most slept behind the chairs...

so you can guess who is listening to those talks infront...

on the last day, all of us had a shock..

being awaken by the bangs and shouts on the doors at 3m, which the normal time should be 4.30am, we were lined up at the field. We were screamed, shouted and punished(half squat, hands straight infront) for being late...

so basically, we suffered for around 2 hrs...the scolding part is not the scary part. to me, it was frightening seeing those ppl who had athma breakdown, crying in the midst of breathing difficulty...and not 1 person, but a few...scary....

then......only after that, we are explained that the scenario that happened in the morning was just an act. So that we can learn to take stress, prevent from breakdown during exams...swt..

we went through a week of all these in orientation, most of the time under stress and preasure..

before you start to eat, u are shouted at to be CEPAT,CEPAT!!! 2 min to eat for everybody...N we are eating with bare hands, no cultery. so we actually got to learn how the malays eat in the whole orientation week. Another scene which i will never forget is...the bangings and shoutings at 4.30am.."BANGUN!!! BANGUN!!! CEPAT BANGUN!!" before they reach our doorstep, me and my roomate already jumped up , rushing to switch on the lights, to show that we are awake--so they wont bang on our doors too hard...memorable....macam hantu...

And through out the orientation, i guess most ppl like the most is the cheers part. each college(the place we stay at) has their own main theme and there is a cheering competition going on that we have to compete with 12 other colleges..so we have to cheer, (basically screaming) on top of our lungs..with all the hand movements and so on..the malays are seriously good at these stuff..really reminds me of Victoria Institue that i saw during band competition. CHS team seldom cheer, but the V I school boys are jumping up and down with their cheers...

anyway....seriously have no voice after the last day of orientation...sore throat...

At the last day of orientation, the seniors told us that actually all of their scoldings and screamings are actually an act that they all put up for us..realy SHOCKING to see the discpline master, who most of the time really garang, shouting and so on, laughng at us, and cracking...jokes? i think very few ppl catch his joke...most still cant come out of his garang impression.....seriously scary..haha

overall, they are nice ppl, help us through recognizing this college and the uni, help us on ptptn infos, and submitting the forms for registering , need to thank them for everything, for hte memorable and "memorable" orientation that they gave us, very very different form our school orientations...

I m BACK!

Back in Malaysia at last...

i was back last week, after 1 month in Japan, i brought my host sister along with me to Malaysia.
With no extra bedrooms available besides the store in my house, i have to camp in the study room as i m giving out my room to Miyo...ahem..in a presentable state lar...my normal room state would have drove her back to Japan immediately.

back home, finding myself quite far behind the all ongoing news here...and definitely not going to read through all the old news paper.

And also......i m going to UM....Faculty of Linguistic.

With things swirling around me at the moment, everything seems to happen really fast, rushing up to me.
I am currently programming myself to accept the fact that i m going to a UNIVERSITY, next next week, study and live there.
OKAY.....i will need 2 or 3 days for that.
Is not that i m worried that i wont be able to go home or so,
just that..i cant believe i m entering a UNI, same kind of feeling when i was in kindergarten, entering primary school.

Ahaha...i sound kiddy...just need time to digest.

here...

i m blogging, because i m super bored...

not back home YET..

stranded in Incheon Airport, for at least 4 hrs....

tired and sleepy...

seriously hope there is a bed for me now....

i m suppose to open my eyes...open big big....to guard my luggage

darn...

lucky here they provide free wi-fi spots and laptops for ppl like me...

seriously bored to death.

they realy have god facilities here, free lounges, wi-fi spots, and even experiencing korean cultural arts for FREE.

too bad.

if you are stranded here for hours like me, you will be bored as well.after the 1st hour.

dying to reach home, or somewhere where you can just close your eyes, and forgot about EVERTHING.

Stabbing Spree-Akihabara,Tokyo

Shocking News..

'Temp worker stabs 7 to death, injures 10 in Akihabara
Monday 09th June, 06:11 AM JST

TOKYO —
Seven people died and 10 others were injured after a man hit pedestrians with a truck and then stabbed passersby Sunday in broad daylight on a street in Tokyo’s busy Akihabara district, a popular electronics area and a magnet for comic and animation fans.

Police arrested the man, Tomohiro Kato from Susono, Shizuoka Prefecture, on the street and seized a survival knife he was carrying. The 25-year-old temp staffer at an auto component factory in the prefecture admitted to stabbing people with the knife, which had a 13 centimeter blade, from around 12:30 p.m., police said.

‘‘I came alone to Akihabara to kill people,’’ investigative sources quoted Kato as telling police. ‘‘I am tired of the world. Anyone was OK.’’

According to police and hospital officials, six of the seven who died were males and aged from 19 to 74. The other was a 21-year-old female.

Of the seven, at least six had been stabbed and two had been hit by the truck, which was rented in Shizuoka Prefecture.

In addition to the seven, 11 people were taken to hospital after the stabbing rampage. Of these, eight were men, including a 53-year-old traffic police officer who was stabbed in the back while helping people hit by the truck, and two women. The remaining male had sustained no injuries but had blood on his clothing.

According to eyewitnesses, a police officer at a nearby police box who noticed the incident hurried to the scene and found Kato wielding the knife.

The officer initially failed to get hold of the suspect after hitting him with a baton a few times. But Kato put the knife down after the officer drew a handgun and issued a warning, leading to his arrest, the eyewitnesses said.

The Akihabara area was crowded with shoppers as Chuo-dori was vehicle-free for pedestrians. The scene was near the intersection of Chuo-dori and Kanda Myojin-dori streets, only a stone’s throw from JR Akihabara Station. '


this is not the first stabbing spree,

'...There were similar street stabbing rampages earlier this year.In January, a 16-year-old boy attacked five people and injured two of them with kitchen knives on a shopping street in Tokyo’s Shinagawa Ward. A man wanted by police on suspicion of murder stabbed passersby with a knife at an entrance to a shopping mall in Tsuchiura, Ibaraki Prefecture, in March, leaving eight people injured, one of whom died later in hospital.The Akihabara rampage also occurred on the seventh anniversary of a stabbing spree by a man at Ikeda Elementary School in Osaka Prefecture on June 8, 2001.The attacker, Mamoru Takuma, was executed for killing eight children and injuring 15 others in that case.'
(above from japan today)

mentally disordered..
news reporter here saids, the killer just want to know how does it feels, to kill.

Bye Bye

I couldnt believe that i actually worked for almost 3 mths in HP. My first intention when i enter, is, I swear that i will get out of here within 1 month. And HAHA... only now i came out..and forever.

It was a really good experience, big diff from school life, connecting to the real world, through the "Cisco" Phone.It was kind of mix feelings in there.

Every conversation started off with the same old script, but directed to diff zillion kinds of ppl out there. Seriously, the ppl you will 'meet' through here, has all kind of colors in them.

Those weirdos , aha...thankfully, GOODBYE FOREVER. Won't need to talk to them anymore.
My nightmare, and thanks to them, they spiced up my life in there. Give me loads of trouble, put me into misery, without them, my life there would be BORINGGGGGGGG. Those Dr's, Prof.'s, and WHATSOEVER ----graded under ---"HIGH CLASS WEIRDOS"/ "HIGH CLASS TROUBLE" which give ppl like us sooo much rojak troubles, SO LONG AND BYE BYE.
Big possibility that i will still meet ppl like these out there, but thanks to these customers, HAHAHA I got EXPERIENCE already, TRAINING sumore.Hear them talk then can detect "PROBLEM" already. Special Big THANKS to DR. CHW, hope u don't read blogs, and don't sue me, i have no money.I 'met' him when i was at my first two days on floor, got his call with loads of LUCK, then misery starts. It ends though, most agents from HP kena fr him as well, but for my part, already ended.Haha...basically he will call in everyday recently, so dear remaining agents, GOOD LUCK.HAHAHA...

A big thanks to all our menthols, the permanents, specifically Melissa, Angie, Vivian and others. Bugging you guys for desperate answers to PSG products in the first two weeks especially, when my line is still open to General ATF Lines. And a serious apology, to all my mistakes + troubles. And special thanks to Margaret, for hiring me, and helping me through those probs that i come to you.

And to my crappy team lead Eddie, AHA---filled with loads of craps, they will miss you most when you are gone. Thanks for helping me through this period. With all kinds of Crap and non-Crap things that were taught by you, thanks,really appreciate it..

And other team mates Jia yu, Tze Shun, Kelly, Justin and others, life would be sooo BORED..without u guys. Will miss you guys alot, alot. Special thanks to Justin, the big "Indian" there--(in Japanese, "Inoshishi" is kind of Wild boar, I dont think thats what you meant rite?? I think for you, "Buta" shd be the right word haha.. don't use lar!) And my backup- Stephanie, gud luck, hopefully not much trouble..haha..

And to the admins, esp Wei Kuan and Aaron, owed u guys alot on the refund issues and TM part. Nice to meet all of you, and good luck to XY and Aaron, who may join the team later on.

Quite a long post....being so attached to this job from morning till night, thinking, doing and dreaming of it for at least 2 mths ++ .It was an unforgettable experience. But it is time for me to cut it, paste it in my past and move on to second phrase. Very hard to detach though..thats why i m jotting such a long post..haha.So that i can clear my mind.

I will be leaving for jp nxt tues. And, I haven't packed a single THING!!
I.M.SO.IN.TROUBLE.

Guys and gals, BYE BYE, and keep in touch via msn yea!!



PS: as for the newly recovered tag board...lazy to maintain previously, dats why i put it down for such a long time..haha..

MANDARAs....

some pictures to share...^^

Below pictures are taken from my mom's and relatives trip to India's Bodhgaya....in December.

Kind of religious tripp i can say..

And it was when i thought below effects are camera effect, it struck me when i m actually seeing it at Qi Xiang's blog where he was at some religious ceremony.

That's why i decided to post it up..

ok, fyi, i m regarding to the pale coloured ORBS,

namely the MANDARA.

round in shape, and can only be captured under camera's flash lights.

There was only a few in QX's photo, but there were UNCOUNTABLE ammount of them in the photos my mom took from the trip. ACCORDING 2 THEM, those are some unexplainable spiritual thingy which croud around places where religious ceremony are going on, and the place where below photos were took are at a really grand ceremony, crowded by thousands of lhamas and long sessions of prayers were conducted. By the way, its definitely NOT camera effect. cause everyone captured it that night.

YEA........

hard to explain.....hard to believe...

"where got such thing 1....dun bluff la...camera effect.."

says me....

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Before the ceremony....

the lhamas, oung and adults and a small amount of MANDARAs..

A Pic of my aunt with the lhamas, and the big" orb"--MANDERA

the clear view of the UNCOUNTABLE MANDARAs at the ceremony.

the mandaras and the 'line'----there wasnt any light deco in the sky, nothing above to be tied to, and it just shot out in the mid. btw, they couldn't even see it without the photo session.

haha...the funny part is, there was even a photo from my uncle, where the line shot INTO his head, i saw it, but photo not with me...maybe get it fr him someday...

ER......I SERIOUSLY think that it is camera effect.

by the way, not every mandaras comes in an orb shape but diamond shapes too, which are rare...

now i feel like i m crapping.....

because i m talking bout' something that even I DON'T believe.....

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wth..........

Its 2.30 am in the morning.....

no, to be specific, 2.57am now.

And i m still here, sitting infront of the PC ..

well...i was asleep just now though, but just couldn't get into deep sleep.

Right, today STPM result is coming out.

And i m getting it at 12pm.TODAY.

er.....i m not too sure wether i m too nervous or what....

cause,

I CAN'T STOP DREAMING ABOUT MY JOB, NOT STPM!!!!!

It's like one after another in my dreams...scenarios of my job.

Reciting the product infos over and over again .....!!!!!! %^&*#$%^&*#$

Seriously,I m going mad.....

and this is not the first day having such dreams....I can say....since young also started already. Just that those are not job related, which doesn't drive me insane. My dreams had never stopped in my sleep, which means, i had never have a peaceful night, or ever did i went into deep sleep.

What i couldn't stand is--------it's all job related, and i m so tired of them now.

After the newspaper advertised on our newly launched campaign -TM STREAMYX yesterday, calls flood in like mad asking on this campaign, and of course the previous one Citibank-Shell ones too.

Not forgetting those resellers calling in asking for more info/discounts and so on all sorts of products, i even get calls asking about workstations, power adapter, servers, prrintservers(only today i know what are those) and so on..

Finding infos to tell them is the ok part, which i had slowly learn to deal with, the sticky part is telling them where they can find compatible gadgets to substitute on their product if we don't sell the specific one that customer wants. Which i have NO idea at---Have to bug seniors for infos. Which sometimes i felt, this do irritates them larr.....

still, have to ask. iF NOT, sure kena shoot by customers.

Those are worst than complaint calls.

For today, i really enjoy these type of cutomer, bcoz it takes longer time to entertain them, no need to pick up the flow of calls flooding in.

We dun even have time to put on 'not ready mode' . The moment the first call ends, second comes in. really siao.....worst still, i had throat problem, almost wanted to take leave by 4 pm, but still, i took calls till 5.30pm, and ended up feverish. Luckily, by that time the calls reduced alot already.

I suppose is after work effect on me....can't stop dreaming about it although i already not thinking about it.

As for the STPM part, too tired to even fear or to be nervous about it. Leave it till 10 am onwards lar.....2 hours for fear and worries----okok.