Limits

Half a sem gone..

here comes the Raya hols..

Uni life does really brush up/ furnished me.

Esp staying in colleges.

At least I had experience the worst(i thought) in emotion controlling in my life till today. Is either the stress in uni level up or my stress controlling system level down. Although most of the time everthing in stable and cozy..there are still many events that really can push my emotions to a stage that..it might just...go overboard and BREAK into pieces.

So, i think i learnt alot in manipulating my limits....

For example, it was 11.30PM, and there is a test tomorrow morning, and i m still sitting in the hall, having a so call conference with the president of the college, with everbody. And normally these conference and events is where a bunch of monkeys putting on a show. Trying to amuse the crowd, getting all the attentions and argueing over some past and silly threats that doesnt help the current situation. Its just some time wasting sessions that i rather go to bed early or last minute studies.

Show time.

Thats what everybody says.

Sitting in the chair watching them quarell and argue, does push my emotional limits to certain extend, really controlled,so that i wont suddenly barge out the door the next second.

Group assignments was another issue.

To deal with group members who CANT understand a word from you, although both speaking the same language, is something new for me.

An assignment given months ago have to be up by tommorow afteroon.

And she was still asking,

" huh, what we have to do oh?"

I really learnt alot just by talking to her.

Blood was BOILING, and i still have to talk to her calmly, repeating stuff that she is supposed to do. STILL, she just can't get what i meant.

Group work is a piece of XXXX full of small and unimportant stuff that has to be done by everyone. She got it finally, when i spat out right in front of her. Never once did i raised my voice in front of others, till i met her. MEMORABLE. But strange, she understand every word i said after that. Thanks to her, that i finally sharpen my skills in communication.

There is still alot more to learn though...