噩梦。。

考试的前一刻，

慌慌张张的看回以前的notes..

特别特别冗长的facts，还在那里想要怎样背

根本背不进！！

朋友们已经准备好纸笔进考场了。。

我还在那里跳脚

为什么我没有准备这张??

太有自信？？

然后就匆匆把notes丢一边，

冲进考场了

然后就是前半部看不懂，后半部可以猜得状况

这样跳脚的情节，还真是久违了

form 6 有我最狼狈不堪的回忆

通宵（本小姐考试从不通宵）背来又背去

整本化学课本还是80%看不懂

本人理解能力有限公司，记忆也是有限公司

教室里坐我前面是全班第一，

第一的旁边坐着第二，

坐我旁边的她总是5名以内

可以说，围绕着我的风水位的统统都是班上的先锋

天天都有朋友来问这问那

还真是热闹

也很羡慕他们能头头是道的解释，辩解

虽然不是听得很懂

却很喜欢看他们为了某某方程式争得连下课也不用去了

我？当然只是在那里傻笑。。

为了考试，通宵不睡的人还真是不少

可是如果通宵可以让我明白那些乱七八糟的理论的话

那还有价值

就是不明白。。

进了考场，把问卷从头看到尾

不是看有那一题答不了

而是看看得懂那一题

然后就把能用的答案全部写下来

相关的也好

不相关的也好

全部写完

所以，到今天还是很珍惜能一进考场

就能从头答到尾的感觉

2个小时对着看不懂的问卷，真的很恐怖

久违的噩梦让我想起这样的一段往事

那一年半，是我极珍贵回忆中的一部分

conscious

Exams is around the corner..and I am yet to be focus.

Which is a MAJOR big problem.

Sometimes I am grateful for my slow senses. They said I am "zen".

But actually not, i am just SLOW. take things too easy...too relax.

Fear seldom knock into my senses 5 min before every heart-attack event.

Grateful. Because this really helps during exams, presentations, interviews. Blah-blah..where everybody sweats, wringing their hands earlier on. It would b a waste of energy to me.

But, i seriously need it this time, because its the fear that i need to get me going, preparing for my exams!!! Which is why i am here after..half a year?To knock myself into consciousness.

My brain is not working well. Or in another words, I am too lazy to make my brain work.

Yes, the key words are---I AM TOO LAZY.

Facts:

I cannot imagine,

-my CGPA dropping, AGAIN.

-not below 3.7.

-not below 3.7.

- I want....

OKAAAY, i am off to study.

muakz~ love this place.

wth..........

Its 2.30 am in the morning.....

no, to be specific, 2.57am now.

And i m still here, sitting infront of the PC ..

well...i was asleep just now though, but just couldn't get into deep sleep.

Right, today STPM result is coming out.

And i m getting it at 12pm.TODAY.

er.....i m not too sure wether i m too nervous or what....

cause,

I CAN'T STOP DREAMING ABOUT MY JOB, NOT STPM!!!!!

It's like one after another in my dreams...scenarios of my job.

Reciting the product infos over and over again .....!!!!!! %^&*#$%^&*#$

Seriously,I m going mad.....

and this is not the first day having such dreams....I can say....since young also started already. Just that those are not job related, which doesn't drive me insane. My dreams had never stopped in my sleep, which means, i had never have a peaceful night, or ever did i went into deep sleep.

What i couldn't stand is--------it's all job related, and i m so tired of them now.

After the newspaper advertised on our newly launched campaign -TM STREAMYX yesterday, calls flood in like mad asking on this campaign, and of course the previous one Citibank-Shell ones too.

Not forgetting those resellers calling in asking for more info/discounts and so on all sorts of products, i even get calls asking about workstations, power adapter, servers, prrintservers(only today i know what are those) and so on..

Finding infos to tell them is the ok part, which i had slowly learn to deal with, the sticky part is telling them where they can find compatible gadgets to substitute on their product if we don't sell the specific one that customer wants. Which i have NO idea at---Have to bug seniors for infos. Which sometimes i felt, this do irritates them larr.....

still, have to ask. iF NOT, sure kena shoot by customers.

Those are worst than complaint calls.

For today, i really enjoy these type of cutomer, bcoz it takes longer time to entertain them, no need to pick up the flow of calls flooding in.

We dun even have time to put on 'not ready mode' . The moment the first call ends, second comes in. really siao.....worst still, i had throat problem, almost wanted to take leave by 4 pm, but still, i took calls till 5.30pm, and ended up feverish. Luckily, by that time the calls reduced alot already.

I suppose is after work effect on me....can't stop dreaming about it although i already not thinking about it.

As for the STPM part, too tired to even fear or to be nervous about it. Leave it till 10 am onwards lar.....2 hours for fear and worries----okok.

eXam's OVER!!!

I am soo glad that it end today...but i am also so damn sure that i didn do well in it......
that paper was tough, although i manage to write for all question will lots of unsure answer except for the vector and geometry deductive questions....i was jumping over it...

HAHAHA....its over, atleast...for now. 2 more months to go before the real one!! maybe less...

aim for the best, hope for the best, and do it all!!!!!
WORK!!!

but before that i will take at least 2 days break...just for a while...

Tomorrow...ends!!!!

my exam will finally ends tomorrow....but also, the real 1 will be in 2 months or less....haha..
still, i am gonna be soo happy for some days before the real thing comes!!
Math paper 2, mainly on statistics tomorow! and was spoken face to face by my math teacher to not use pencils during paper 2..(i am the only 1 in the whole class who use pencils during exams...math only la....)

this is where i use to study....--In the dining!!!

u see the net between the two fishes?it is to prevent the big 1 from eating up the small 1...really..the eyes are gone, in the stomach i guess..


mmm.....homemade mooncakes by my mom!! mooncake festival is around the corner!!
love it! it is not as sweet as the ones on sale outside, those are filled with sugar!!...that's the best part of homemade stuff, healthy and delicious...

all lucks tomorrow!!

Chem....T_T

Today is my chemistry paper......and i am drowning.....XD
it was hectic, 1st paper( 1 and a half hr) and then the 2nd( 2 and a half hr) ..with half hr break in the middle. when i finish my 1st paper, which is just ony on time to pass up, my vision really blurred when i looked up for the 1st time.
Overall, it is done very badly..... really exhausted after that.. tommorow is math...at least there is not so much to memorize...
Argh!! i m really bad at memorizing!!! and what's more, bio will be the day after tomorrow....
and it will sure be BLOODY too....hope it doesnt go as bad as today's...

gANbatTe!!!!!!

Can't Breath...

赶。。。赶。。。赶。。。
赶完一题又一题。。。到最后差不多快晕倒了。。。。graph chart 简直乱涂。。。
今天的general paper 真是考的狼狈不堪。。。。不要太差就好了。。。。。
明天还有 chemistry paper......那个简直就是死定了。。。。。

我认识一个奇怪的男生， 天天喜欢跑过来吓我。 今天他还告诉我说 看我被吓到的反应让他有‘冲动’ 想过来吓我。。。。。。sweat @_@
haihz.....这种人都有。。。不过他也很好笑啦。。。。考卷快到时间了还拼命在那边讲话。。。。

Trials COMING!!!!

Great, great, great.....trials is just around the corners.... NEXT WEEK!!!!
and math has been predicted to be the killer paper....so is others......
T_T i have to really work for the last few days in order to scrape through.

WORK!!!!!!!!STUDY!!!!!!!!!!
Forget about posting this 2 weeks ya....
2day will be my last day online untill the last day of my trials....
bye bye.............